Monday, February 19, 2007

lonely chinese new yr, lonely me.

wat i am about to type now i have been thinking for a long time if i wanna let everyone noe. well guys by now i guess u all noe tt candice broke up wit mi. it was on friday tt i knew. my life now is like job. being put thru many test and trial. for the past few week the lord have been telling alot of things showing me things tt i never knew about. He has let me relive my darkest moment of my life. God bought mi back to the 1st time i ever have a gf and how she broke up wit mi. it was exactly the same. i was really hurt and i tried to numb myself thru many diff ways, like finding another girl to replace her in my life. but i never really fell back in love ever after her. after all this years i didn't really noe how to love anymore after my 1st gf. but i dun noe why after i meet candice it was a diff feeling, i began to feel the warm in my heart. i didn't noe wat was tt feeling. but not long after i was attach to candice. but one thing for sure is i start to love again thru candice. i started learn how to really love someone properly. and i truely thank god for tt. due to the recent break up the things i tot i had forgotten all about came back to haunt me. guys this might be one of the reason i might be diff lately. i am struggling from within.cuz i never realize it will make me fall and break me into pieces. i can't help to but to keep asking God wat plan does he have for me. why have He taken her away from me. i am really lost now. she did tell me tt it is onli a break from our 1st part of the jounery. she still say tt she still love mi, and i noe tt i still love her. dear brothers i just hope u guys keep us in prayer. my life now is really like job. wat God did to job in the 1st few chapter, i am learning how to be like job to praise him in all things. i am really lost. thank brother.
Anonymous || 4:30 PM