Saturday, February 24, 2007

trying to get over

onli heard this recently tt candice has got over me le. i dun noe wat tt mean, but i feel tt it mean she dun love me anymore le. tt wat i guess. anyone out there can help mi on tt. it is hard to let go. i am facing things tt i never face b4. i hated myself for things tt i do.
but i learn something today. to do things step by step, dun be over anixous.tt y i screw up so many things including my relationship wit candice.i used to be selfish too over protective, possessive, insecure, bad temper. all this had finally led to the breaking up of my relationship. everytime i start to hate myself i recall abt job.can i really be like job. praise him in all. bro i am really struggling this is the 1st time i felt so helpless. really helpless. like being struck down to the floor and abandon. this time i guess i am really hurt, hurt real bad.

ps. dennis i dun noe am i able to stand up again from this fall, i also dun noe will i ever look for another gf next time. but most likely not. other then candice. i really need help from u guys.

ps. to anyone who might talk to candice, just wanna say tt i will show her tt i am a change man not becuz of her or the relationship, but becuz of wat god done. and also i hope to be able to be friends wit her again soon.
Anonymous || 12:16 AM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Perseverance

Just want to give u a verse from the bible, James 1: 4, to encourage you to continue on and not give up. As you have mentioned, you and candice are still in love with each other, so i believe this might be a testing period for both of you.

Dont give up, your G12 brothers will always be by your side. We believe u will be able to get by this difficult period of your life, and become a stronger person. Cause I got by the difficult phase of my life when i was in the hospital with the help of my spiritual family, family and God. I believe God will be able to guide u through this.

Take care Bro..
Zerri_cool || 9:40 PM

Monday, February 19, 2007

lonely chinese new yr, lonely me.

wat i am about to type now i have been thinking for a long time if i wanna let everyone noe. well guys by now i guess u all noe tt candice broke up wit mi. it was on friday tt i knew. my life now is like job. being put thru many test and trial. for the past few week the lord have been telling alot of things showing me things tt i never knew about. He has let me relive my darkest moment of my life. God bought mi back to the 1st time i ever have a gf and how she broke up wit mi. it was exactly the same. i was really hurt and i tried to numb myself thru many diff ways, like finding another girl to replace her in my life. but i never really fell back in love ever after her. after all this years i didn't really noe how to love anymore after my 1st gf. but i dun noe why after i meet candice it was a diff feeling, i began to feel the warm in my heart. i didn't noe wat was tt feeling. but not long after i was attach to candice. but one thing for sure is i start to love again thru candice. i started learn how to really love someone properly. and i truely thank god for tt. due to the recent break up the things i tot i had forgotten all about came back to haunt me. guys this might be one of the reason i might be diff lately. i am struggling from within.cuz i never realize it will make me fall and break me into pieces. i can't help to but to keep asking God wat plan does he have for me. why have He taken her away from me. i am really lost now. she did tell me tt it is onli a break from our 1st part of the jounery. she still say tt she still love mi, and i noe tt i still love her. dear brothers i just hope u guys keep us in prayer. my life now is really like job. wat God did to job in the 1st few chapter, i am learning how to be like job to praise him in all things. i am really lost. thank brother.
Anonymous || 4:30 PM

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Just a sharing

Dear Brothers and Sisters (I know you all read our blog too) in Christ, greetings...

I suppose this is my first blog entry, haha...

Anyway, let's see... What i wanna share is about prayer. As we all know, Jesus told us to pray, Pastor encourages us to pray, and we know we should pray. But are we doing it? I know i am, so why not you. I wanna share some things that happened recently and not so recently regarding my prayer life.

"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective." - James 5:16

Well, i cannot say that I am truly righteous, but whenever I pray for someone else, and I know that I pray with the heartbeat of our Lord Jesus, He answers my prayers.

So what is the heartbeat of Jesus? I'm sure most of us know a little about it. He wants to Heal us, Deliver us, Bless us, He loves the weak, the poor and the humble.

Let's see, when i was still a young Christian, during my Poly school days, which is 2 or 3 years back, I remember specifically praying for my classmate Bryan for his driving test. He is a backsliden brother, and I told him that I will be praying for his driving test and not to worry so much. Guess what, he passed his driving test. (Of course right, if not share for what)

Anyway, recently, or should I say last night at the MHA(Ministry of Home Affairs) Annual Dinner, something happened also. Not a big thing, but big enough to let me know that God is working His miracles in my life and others. As any other Dinner and Dance events, there is a lucky draw for anyone who attends. So what happened was my Team Leader(we work in teams) couldn't make it for the dinner, but we registered him for the lucky draw anyway (Typical Singaporean mah). And I dunno why, I prayed this simple prayer, "God, bless my friends, let them win something." Lo and Behold, the Lord used me to bless my Team Leader. His ticket was with me, by God's will, and he got the 10th prize of a Phillips DVD recorder, not bad huh...

Some of us may say coincidence la, but guess what, you're right. Because coincidence is God's way of working in our lives. What else you want God to do? Make the earth shake and walls crumble everytime He works in our lives? Then we would be living in ruins already, cos so many times God has worked in our lives.

A quote from a book I read, "When God Winks" by Squire Rushnell

Co-in-ci-dence
A sequence of events that although accidental seems to have been planned or arranged.

Wink
To give a signal or express a message

God's Wink
A personal signal o message, directly from a higher power, usually, but not always, in the form of a coincidence.

So, are we recognizing God's winks in each of our lives yet? Or are we still dismissing it as coincidences and ignoring what God has for us?

So brothers and sisters, let us start each day afresh, with the Word of God, knowing that He is ultimately in control of our lives. Submit ourselves to His will, as we all know, His will and not ours be done. And be ready to receive His great blessings poured out from Heaven above.

Take care, God bless.
Joe Choo
Joe Choo || 1:23 PM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

主啊 我要跟随你 by Streams of Praise

你的话在我心
使我脚步不偏离
令我走这人生路
你的爱在我心
你必与我同行
牵我的手走下去
主啊 我要跟随你
将我一生献给你
回应你的呼召来爱你
坚持一生不偏离
主啊 我要跟随你
将我一生献给你
求你用我做你的器皿
将你的爱分享出去

meaningful...indeed...
Francis Lim || 3:34 PM